5 on Friday- 12/6

1. Yesterday was a great day followed up by a horrible night. I found out that there is a malpractice issue with my specialty NP license that caused an issue with the practice I had started at. They called me last night (right when I walked in the door from a 12 hour shift) and told me that they cannot complete my hire and give me my contract..... Cue lots of tears. I am so so sad. I loved this job and practice. I really loved everyone that I worked with and I finally thought that all my crazy hard work had paid off with my dream job (and 6 figure paycheck). But here I am sulking and bummed out. So now I am unemployed right before the holidays and I haven't done any Christmas shopping yet.  I am taking my own lesson from yesterday and telling you.... I AM NOT OK.
2. I sulked and laid around depressed for hours this morning, until about 1:30, then decided I had to get out and do something because otherwise I was going to lay there and cry so I went out in the snowstorm and went to Costco and Kroger. I got tons of grocery shopping done, and we needed it! I hadn't been in a long time.
3. I made some prepped meals for a friend tonight. Her husband had surgery and has to be off work for a month and I wanted to help them out because I know that she has a lot going on with that and her son. I made 2 meals that they can just put in the crock pot and one big pan of lasagna that just needs baked in the oven. I will be taking them over there tomorrow! Even on a day when I was so bummed out it felt good to be able to do something for someone else, that is the nurse in me, I like to care for others. For a little while I was able to not think about the hardship we are undergoing now.
4. There is a beautiful snowstorm outside.
5. I am finally going to post my Christmas Bucket List tonight so stay tuned for that!